Time and time again I find myself falling in love with you
It's like that first look when I first caught your smile
your gaze
the warmth of your embrace

there was a rush of excitement

butterflies

electrifying thrill
chill

Oh it feels like it was just yesterday
but it has been
twelve beautiful years
of every day
of every minute
of every moment
of every breath
that I keep falling in love with you.

Ottawa 2007. 7th wedding anniversary.



I hope you will be happy there with me.

Powerful and heartfelt words from my husband. I feel that he is worried about this move. He knows how much I like and enjoy the city... The fun, glam, glitter and all that jazz. He said that the place where he will take me is so much different from here. Wilderness surrounds the small town of Yellowknife. The lifestyle is quiet versus a fast phase life here in Toronto. Life over there is about nature and outdoor activities.

My manager said that I am selfless for giving up things like "running water". He was funny. His speech during the goodluck-on-your-move-party was heartfelt and I thought it was great. It was a good thing that someone blew the surprise for me otherwise I could have been crying and ruining my mascara. But I was truly touched and sad that day.

Selfless is a powerful word too.

I think that giving up all that I am used to in my daily life in exchange of a new life with my family being together is the hardest decision I have made. Being "selfless" however is the easiest choice I had and the only one that made sense. I was asked if I had always been selfless to which I replied, I just want things to be easier. I think and analyze but I don't over-analyze. I am a free spirit who acts with no regrets, always looking ahead, and deals with the consequences instead of worrying about them. I don't like spending too much time thinking when I already know what I want. To me worrying makes things complicated.

A friend of mine said that things happen for a reason. He said that this move is meant to be because this is what I wanted. He said that I had wished in my mind and in prayers for my family to be together and this is the answer to my wish. Indeed God moves in mysterious ways and we really have to be in tuned to Him so we can gratefully accept His will. I guess He wants me to be have the opportunity to be "selfless" and experience the joy of having my wishes granted.

Today is our 10th wedding anniversary. We celebrated it with take out Vietnamese/Chinese food. Our table was made of carton boxes and we were sitting on the floor with our children. We were surrounded by boxes and mess. The ambiance could not be any better and we were all very happy and having a nice time.

I think that shoes are like men. No matter how painful they can get, we still buy them. Why? Because the first time we try them on, they feel so nice... they look good. No wonder women end up with a lot of pairs because women could not find the right pair for the right purpose. (Don't raise your eyebrows yet, I have a point). I think men would agree that women have too much pairs of shoes.

Like all other women I have tons of shoes too. I still have pairs with tags on them but what can I do? I was deceived. But I have learned my lesson. I am now mature at choosing the right pair for me. There are shoes that are chosen because of how they look. Some shoes are chosen because of how they make us feel. Some shoes make us feel sexy, pretty, or confident. But at times, women end up complaining that these shoes hurt.




Some women end up buying the wrong pair too (either they were not aware of what suit their feet, they were deceived, talked into it, or it was an impulse). Others simply could not find the "perfect" shoes. Some women buy the shoes because it is the kind they can afford and that they do not want to spend more time in searching for another pair. In other words, they settle for it. I think that in finding the right shoes it is important for women to know for what purpose do they need the pair of shoes. In short consider the lifestyle, who you are. Do you always run? Do you always walk? Are you a classic urban chic or a girly girl? Is quality important to you? How much are you willing to invest, to risk? (Do you get me now?)
Shoes reflect our lifestyle, the persona we want to project. And just like men, shoes can be sooo attractive that we take them home because of an impulse. Oh, and there are those shoes that do not last, those that break easily and wear out too quickly.

If it is said that "women kiss a lot of frogs before finding their prince charming" I say I have bought too many pairs of shoes before finding my perfect match. Today was wet, windy and gray. I was walking outside. And as I walked, I thought to myself how lucky I am to be wearing my perfect pair of boots. I was comfortable and I felt protected. And to this I thought hmmmnn... this feeling reminds me of my husband.

And oh, I have to end this note to clear that I have boxed my "unwanted" and "deceitful" pairs of shoes and will be sending them away ^^

**another sort of hallmark writing I wrote for my husband years ago. Years have gone by and the feelings remain the same :) **